Stranded

I start swimming, never looking back, keep swimming until I find myself stranded, waiting for that wave to wash me away, that chance I will breath again, diving in too deep waiting to hit rock bottom, but I keep coming back up.. stranded, I feel like sinking, but never can, my friends, my family, stopping me, always saving me, I want to drown, but cant, I'm still stranded, but now I'm not breathing, the airs thinner, my life flashing in my head, my souls gone, I mean if this isn't hell already were am I, why am I still alive, my hearts still beating, I'm still breathing, but I'm not living, my life's stranded I, keep swimming, I'm not stopping, just keep telling myself ill make it to the other side, I've swam too far now, I'm not breathing, but i finally feel alive, I'm not stranded anymore, feels like I've finally started living, because now I'm alive, now I am dead.