Strength in two...

I can't speak the words that I feel, but I can write them down to stop myself weep, 
So the times when I'm quite, I'm just doing me, I'm just doing what is helping me breathe,
We had our thoughts of living a dream, now on my pillow, wide awake, I just can't sleep,
If there is a god, why did he not choose me? why was it your beautiful heart that had to leave?

When I feel the rain on my skin, I sense that it's you letting me in,
The pain still burns, my heart still hurts, I numb the days with a drink,
Tears cascade with a darkened shadow, as I want to live in sin,
My love for you, carries my heavy body along, I'm weak but my light won't dim.

I hope you will be there, waiting for me, When the time comes,
I know you will,
Just wait,
Darling, just wait.

My time to grieve will come to an end, but for now, your voice surrounds me when I'm in bed,
I still see your smile, 
I still feel your mind, 
The touch of your lips upon mine,
I just can't get you out of my head.

This wasn't part of our plans, when the doctor spoke them words, I couldn't understand,
It was like something had crushed our world, I just miss the warmth of your caressing hand,
It's not easy moving on, I don't even know, if I'll ever again,
I just want somewhere to hang my heart, so I don't feel this pain.

I hope you will be there, waiting for me, When the time comes,
I know you will,
Just wait,
Darling, just wait,
Please,
Just wait,
I'll see you again...