Stuck

I’m stuck between reality and unimaginable fantasy.

I want to work hard at a better life, but I wonder if it’s even worth it.

Have I already made such an image in my head that is going to be impossible to live up to.

If so, I’d rather stay in my head.

Daydreaming, getting lost in my own world.

A world where I am who I want to be, where I want to be, doing what I want to be doing.

Could it ever be that good?

Could I ever truly be that person?

Am I stuck, destined to be a person who dreams instead of doing?

I will inevitably pass up all opportunities to become the person I have made up in my head.

Or, I will stay out of my dream world, fasten myself to life and see where it takes me.

I feel as though I already am where I want to be, in my mind.

It’s comfortable, perfect, with no possibility of anything going wrong.

And when I have that, why would I leave it for something so flawed, such a beautiful disaster.

Why would I want to live life, when I can live life happily?