Submissive One

I will never ask or question why...I will not run to you when I cry...I will not laugh too loud or speak...unless you tell me to, I'm weak....

I will not pressure you to love me...or ask if you do...I will just leave, lock myself in my dungeon of hell...never make a peep, shhh, I'll never tell...

I will abide by every rule... I won't mess up, I promise you...I will ask before anything is done...I won't make assumptions or have opinions....

I'll sit in the room like a barbie doll should...I'll sit and stare out the window, I'm good...

I won't disrespect you or ask myself why...why there are times that I wish I could die...why would God leave me on this earthly hell?...To suffer? To bleed? To live in this cell? 

I'm sorry I can't be more perfect for you...I'm sorry I spoke, I'm sorry I'm blue...I'll try harder, baby, I promise, I swear...I will make you proud of me, I love you, I care...

I'll try and I'll try until I get it right...I won't show anger, or hurt, or fright...I'll let you bring girls to the house, all for you...I won't interrupt, I won't even be blue....

I'll sit in my room, my dungeon of despair...I'll always love you, I'll always care...Just please don't forget to give me  water, no food...I don't want you to bother, I don't want you to move...

I'll cook your meals with a smile on my face...I'll clean and vacuum, anytime, anyplace...

Just please when you hit me, don't hurt me too much...I don't want my face to burn to the touch...

I won't utter a word, or shake and cry...I won't question your decision, I won't ask you why...

I know it's my fault, someway and somehow...Please accept my apology, please don't scream and yell...

I'll dust myself off, I'll be fine, you'll see...For tomorrow is another day...play, stop, repeat....

For all abused women who's mindset is this...The lonely nights crying, the life we have missed...We dust ourselves off and try to move on...but our memories remain ever vigilant and strong...

To the next guy who is unlucky to care...We apologize in advance, we have baggage to bear...We still cry at night while you sleep and dream...The flashbacks, the memories, our scars remain deep...

Please, just hang in there, don't give up, we beg...Many of us suffer alone in our head...We analyze and think of what we've done wrong...We cry for no reason, we flinch, and we're down...

We try to smile when you are around...we try not to cry, we try to stay strong...But many of us can't, we shed hurtful tears...We whimper and sniffle when you are not near...

Yes, we need you, please do not think that...Yes, we love you for dealing with our crap...And while life is tough for everyone, you see...To us, life is different; it's healthy and clean...

We're not used to having our spirits take flight...We're used to hands hitting us, every day and night..So when you say that you love us so...Please, truly mean it, or just let us go...

Yes, we have fears, we have horrible dreams...We wake up with cold sweats, we wake up in tears...Please just hold us and tell us we're fine...That true love can weather any hurt or time...

We'll wake up one day with a smile on our face...We'll know we are loved, we'll know our place...

Right next to you as a partner, no less...A wife, a mother, and normal distress...We'll kiss you and laugh like our lives were just fine...But please give us love and plenty of time...

You'll hear us say sorry for everything we do...We're sorry, we're sorry for placing this pressure on you...

Just try to smile and say everything's okay...We'll be alright, in time, one day...