Park Bench Ponderings
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Park Bench Ponderings
In the park on a hot sunny day…
I’m not sure how it happens-
Perhaps it’s pure introversion-
But I get thinking:
Wondering: how I am;
Why I am;
Who I am.
It’s difficult to be objective
When I am the subject
Of my thoughts.
How do others see me?
As demanding?
Immature?
“Not a leader…”
And not “easily led.”
Helpless? Clingy?
Dependent?
Worried?
Selfish?
Self- pitying?
I don’t think it’s self- pitying exactly.
(though I might be wrong);
I look back at my life and think
“Why didn’t I realise such and such was wrong?
Did I not see the gravity of the situation?
Why did it have to be pointed out to me?”
And then it gets vague and psychological.
I’m “subtly institutionalised”
I’ve been told.
Caught up in a fantasy world.
Not always understanding things:
How to read a meter,
Change a fuse-
And arrogance perhaps- the thought
“Others will always help me.”
Pay my rent. Fix my lights.
Demanding indeed.
I sit on the park bench
Peering out on the world
Trying desperately to
Be objective; to understand
How I am;
Why I am;
Who I am.
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DEAR MICHAEL,,, YOU POOR THING,! SO SORRY YOU FEEL THAT WAY, TRY & SEEK HELP IF POSSIBLE ? BUT YOU WILL FINDÂ THAT YOUR PEN WILL BE YOUR SAVIOURÂ ASÂ IT WAS MINE,Â
I FIND IT A PERFECT WAY TO COUNSEL & EXPRESS MYSELF JUST BY WRITING DOWN MY THOUGHTS...ITS GOOD THERAPY AS I TO SUFFER WITH DEPRESSION,..,LET SOME GOOD COME FROM THIS & TURN A NEGATIVE INTO A POSITIVE,ONCE YOU ARE ON HERE A WHILE IM SURE YOU WILL CHEER UP VERY SOON , I HOPE...GOD BLESS & TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF
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Thank you very much for your reply. I'm quite new to Cosmofunnel and do find it very cathartic. I'll be ok.
Take care,
Michael
KEEP WRITING MICHAEL.... YOU WILL BE AMAZED..HOPE IT WORKS FOR Â YOU MY FRIEND X
I have always thought that very bad things arise to die always there is a time. Suicide possibly that act against nature that almost always occurs in a State of mental derangement, an act of selfishness that harms those who love us.
When Pedro Casariego ended his latest book devoted to his young daughter, he left home without saying anything to anyone and threw himself to the railroad tracks making a point and end his life. There are personal suicides, but also suicide induced by others, when Rolula removed from FB to a large majority of its contacts took a small vial of insulin and without thinking of her little son injected it is to cause his death.
When so many people fighting serious illness in all hospitals of the planet, killing yourself is an aberrant Act, an atrocity, all have thought at some point to finish with everything, but life has continued its way forward, the years rather than remove, they provide important mue things and prepare us for that bad time to starting from forcible way toward nothing but absolute.
A greeting to both and always remember this slogan, "Die Always There Will be a Time", by which we now enjoy what you have, life, without life there is nothing, not even the pain.
IM SURE THAT S CHEERED MICHEAL UP NO END LUCAS ???? :Â
Don't worry, I'm ok. As you can see I've replaced my previous poem with a less downbeat one- there doesn't seem to be a way to delete poems- only to overwrite them).
Hi Michael,
Welcome to our family sweety. I hope you get a lot of comfort and joy from all the talented poets on here. It`s correct what people say about poetry, it`s cathartic and very good therapy and most poets help each other through their words. You are very talented sweety so be very proud of your work and keep writing for us all.
Much love
G xx
Thank you.