"Sweet bitterness" By Ben Goode 2018 (c)

En nous tous, il y a une amertume qui prend les rênes. Dans le chagrin, la colère et le chagrin. Parfois, nous avons le sentiment d'avoir perdu le contrôle. Parfois nous voulons. Et quand tout semble perdu, quelqu'un demande trois mots simples.
"Ça va?"
(Within us all is a bitterness, which takes the reins. In sorrow, anger and grief. Sometimes we feel we have lost control. Sometimes we want to. And when all seems lost, someone asks three simple words.
"Are you ok?")

I am here when nobody else is.
"I don't have anyone!"
Nobody cares! You don't either! 
"I don't! I don't care about anything, about anyone!"
I am here to protect you.
"They won't hurt me again!" 
When they take the love away. I am all that's left within you.
"They never loved me anyway!"
I scream within you in fury. I crave revenge.
"HA ha Karma, karma's a bitch and so am I!"
I want to hurt someone, because they hurt you!
"Yes. But how can I hurt them?"
Beat that fist on the wall. Break something. Break someone.
"I'll hurt myself, so they feel guilty!"
I cry because I know you want to.
"I can't stop, please don't let it hurt anymore!"
I shout because it's all I have to say!
"Just fucking go away! Leave me alone!"
I am scorn, I am seething anger, jealousy and disgust.
"I hate you, I wish you were dead!"
Don't be kind anymore it doesn't matter.
"I don't give a fuck!" "Fuck the world, and everyone in it!"
Love is futile. You will never love again. You stupid fool.
Giving up your heart. Trusting so easily. Idiot!
"Love is a joke!" 
You've given enough, and now it's your turn to take
Why should you try anymore? What's the point?
"I can't do this anymore!"
Don't drive me out, you know you want me here.
"I don't want to be here anymore. I want to disappear!"
I am but your own sweet bitterness. 
"I never asked for this!"
Don't give anymore chances. Drink away your sorrow.
"Fuck it, why not? I have nothing to lose"
Perhaps the world would be better without you.
"Nobody will miss me anyway."
My work is done.

Text message: "Are you ok?"
"No. I'm really not"
"Aww sweety I'll be there soon"

DAMN!