Swimming in Circles

1,2, count to five.
So much in my mind,
- And in my life.
My thoughts took a dive.

So much to do,
And little action.
Slamming my fist.
Into a brick wall.

Like I can`t push,
Quieten or shush,
The stressful feeling,
That I`m dreaming.

That all around.
Fictional forces are at play.
And my life doesn’t matter,
I`m just playing a game.

And all the meanwhile,
The pain remains,
These scars, they don`t fade.
Wounds, they  never heal,
Reality doesn`t feel real.

I don`t lie.
The Fish of the Sea.