Tapestry of love

You that word
meaning another
yet so in twined in my our tapestry
I cannot see how I will live without you
he the other half of me with oh so
many years that instead of memories 
will unravel with my tears
I am lost, alone, and shattered 
by your swift departure
Me I try to wish or imagine or wake 
from this uncertain dream, seeing you
but no longer able to reach out and
touch your face or hand
us who we were as a couple not
the half I am or the half of you 
the bit that encapsulated all we were
the good the bad and the ugly
the determination that no matter
what we had the clear understanding
that neither one of us could be happy
without the other
the conclusion that more is lost
then just you, I am lost too
without your forceful decisions and
spoilt ways lost without the love 
you had for me, it was so strong
it was to last a lifetime however 
long that was.
but you are gone and I am half here
making unnatural conversations with 
people that I naturally wouldn't be talking to
and yet I want to talk to you and tell you all
the news about this untimely death and how
to fix everything all our flaws, all our 
petty disagreements, they mean nothing
because the love, our tapestry was strong yet
at times there were weak threads and 
unnecessary stress but we carried on
today I wake up like every day 
half the person I was, the other half is you
and when you checked out
you took that part of me and I get to keep
the half which is now a void
I loved you, I love you, and no words
can make that okay, I want to send
that love where ever you are
I want it to find you, and for you to give 
me a sign that you are okay but 
mostly I need you to know that no matter 
what life threw at us, our love was real
it was always real
forever will I miss you forever you
will be my tapestry
the part of you that's me.