Tarshish

Have no clue of what I’m running from 
When I’m fully aware of your powers
Have no idea of what I’m hiding from
When I know you are omnipresent 
Don’t know why I keep on boarding 
When I know on the other side you’d be waiting
I can’t seem to know why I don’t turn around 
When I know you can solve all my burdens 

Taking tickets to Tarshish
Cos I’m scared of my shames
Taking tickets the wrong way
Cos I’m scared of your wraths 
Can not embark this journey 
I may be angry or I may be jealous 
So taking tickets to Tarshish
Cos I’m heart’s in pieces 

Give me one If not two tickets 
Let me hop in this boat or one those fleets
Got to get As far away from here
Don’t think I can Handle this pressure 
Give me a seat or don’t 
Just get me to the other side 
That isn’t here
For my anger and shame
Might burn down this place 

So give a ticket to Tarshish
Cos I feel one don’t deserve the saving
A quick ticket to the run way
Cos you haven’t earned the healing
Cannot say that myself is righteous 
But if there were a scale the others sin weigh more
So a ticket to Tarshish 
Cos I feel my heart has fail you.

I know the sea of unforgiving is surely gonna drown me
I know the waves of judging and envy will definitely toss me
I know I’d sit in the belly of doubt till it binds me
And I know in this darkness I will truly seek the light