Tears

Looking out  the window watching the rain   thinking and  angel is joining me in crying   the rain just hides my tears,  I woke again to find you still were not home  it has be so long  since you left  to find  yourself  I am wondering if I was the reason that you left .   My darling we used to walk by the lake shore holding hands and laughing   over nothing at all.  We seem to have it all  I wish I had seen the signs  that something was wrong , I suppose if I had taken off the blinders I would have seen all the signs .  Those late night calls and the ones that hung up when I answer the phone   or hearing oh sorry wrong number. Was I just naive or was I just not wanting to know the truth.   I cry each day  for you   I know you know I will wait  for you till the end of time  I know you still love  me of this I can’t deny . no I walk along the lake shore but I don’t laugh  any more  I leave a trail of tears  for you   to find me .  I know one day  that you will  be on our door step  and we  will laugh again  , and take a walk  along the lake shore  just like before . 

So until then I will sit by the window and watch the rain and let it hide my tears for you. my darling  where  ever you are I hope you are laughing  don’t worry about me  I will be fine  I will take walks  and pretend you are with me  and I will  pretend to laugh  at you jokes  just be good and take care of yourself and I will be here  when you come back to our home  .  Looking out the window watching the rain, thinking and angel is joining me in crying the rain just hides my tears.