The Battle Between My Heart and Mind

My heart wants to be free of it's misery,
My mind wants to rewind all the time.
My heart wants to feel the flame,
My mind wants me to feel the shame.
My heart wants to grow warmer,
My mind wants to take me down under.
My heart wants to stay in one piece,
My mind wants me to not feel peace.
My heart wants to be the best I can,
My mind wants me to need a man.
My heart wants to feel another beat,
My mind wants me to feel defeat.
My heart wants to learn what true love is,
My mind wants me to search for it.
My heart wants to know if he's really mine?
My mind laughs at me, says "stand in line!"
My heart wants to help me be a good mother,
My mind tells me you might as well not bother.
My heart wants me to find myself,
My mind wants me in a cell.
My heart wants to start to open up,
My mind tells me you'll mess this up.
My heart feels the hurt all the time,
My mind tells me you're not worth the time.
My heart is filled with love for all of my kin,
My mind tells me I will never win.
My heart tells me you can still be happy,
My mind tells me your life is still crappy.
My heart tells me to never stop trying,
My mind tells me he's always lying.
My heart tells me to never let go,
My mind tells me always feel low.
My heart tells me it's time for changes,
My mind tells me theres no skipping pages.
My heart tells me to peacefully rest,
My mind tells me life is just a test.
My heart tells me this is the actual real deal,
My mind tells me that I don't know what I feel.
My heart tells me I'm still inside,
My mind tells me the old me died.
My heart tells me it can get better from here,
My mind tells me worst mom of the year.
My heart tells me this can be beat,
My mind tells me to accept defeat.
My heart tell me you will never give up!!
My mind tells me to keep backing up.
My heart tells me to follow it forward,
My mind tells me don't open the door.
My heart tells me continue to climb,
My mind tells me no, not this time.
My heart tells me it's time to finally be free,
My mind tells me "it" teaches me to be me.
My heart tells me this depression will never win,
My mind tells me that it already did.