The Darkness Sleeps

In the corners of my mind
                 the darkness sleeps
Time passing slowly
                 until it's time to leap
Into the fragile reality
                 of my everyday world
Where heartache and
                 self loathing start to unfurl
The doubt takes over
                 and then the shame begins
I question myself
                 but I can never win
I blame myself
                 for the abhorrent trauma
A whirlwind of pain
                 but I have to inform you
That I couldn't leave
                 or set myself free
Just live day to day
                 in abject misery
Trying to make sense
                 of an unspeakable sorrow
Forget yesterday and today
                 with the hope that tomorrow
Will bring some relief
                 and the memories will fade
That life will go on
                 and that I'll be ok
BUT
In the corners of my mind
                 the darkness sleeps