The End Of My World
DISCLAIMER:
this poem is about an earlier time in my life where I thought about ending my life.
In this poem I write about some of my thoughts during this time.
Some people may not feel comfortable reading this, so if you’d rather not read it, that’s ok. Just wanted to warn you.
In a time,
Where nothing gives me hope.
And where every little thing hurts.
The only thing I can do.
Is give up.
Will I do it?
I don’t think I can.
I’m not capable of that.
But it’s what I want.
And it’s what I shouldn’t.
I’m standing on the train station.
I’m looking at the train rails.
Listening to the sound of my thoughts,
Wondering whether I should do it.
Should I jump?
Or should I stay.
Do I want,
To die?
No.
I just don’t want to live anymore.
It’s no time to die.
I just want it to be over.
I’m trying to tell myself:
It’s ok, you’re not alone.
You don’t have to die.
You don’t have to live.
Just close your eyes.
And you’ll be ok.
You’ll be fine.
You’re
Fine.
All I want,
Is to see,
The end
Of my world.
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So on Cosmofunnel I used to have another profile I went by Reborn RobÂ
and I wrote about my childhood , it was very dark and some of the poems were very explicit and very very dark . I liked this and pinned it not because I like the topic but because I’m glad that you are able to acknowledge these feeling from the past and accept them . I had a few very key support people on here that supported the dark ones and would always shine light and it helped so dearly . I deleted that account though once I felt I had addressed all the old “ bad blood “ and once it was deleted I created this new one as I feel I’m on a different journey now . The fact you had the courage to write this goes to show your strength in your transformation from then until now and speaks volumes about your growth . So kudos to not having those feelings anymore and getting through a time where you felt that way and now being in a place where you can be honest about those feelings and with enough strength you can share them and create awareness !Â
Thank you :)
I wrote about this topic so I can super relate , the reason I like poetry is “ there are no rules “ so never be sorry or feel you have to alter your feelings , get them out . The disclaimer I’m sure is appreciated by whoever may not want to read an explicit write so kudos on the respect but for others like me , we rather read a write filled with raw emotion then one about unicorns and butterflies as the real world isn’t always happy go lucky . You are on fire on here this morning . 🔥Â
Thanks for your support, it means a lot to me :)