The green eyes of thankfulness

I am forever engaged in war, a raging, endless torrent of self torment 
A war that was waged when I was still small enough to cry
I learnt that I was to be alone, no matter what happened in life
I would be alone, I would always fail, there was no point to even try

But that was before I met you

There have been people who have flattered me and complimented effortlessly
About my person for whatever personal goal they were trying to achieve
I humoured them, I graciously accepted whilst knowing they lied
Until you spoke to me

You opened these green eyes of mine

For some reason I believed you, everything you said and the manner of which you said it
It all made sense and then the guilt kicked in about how I had treated myself
I did not love me, I did not care about me, I was waging war on everyone around me
Until you told me that surviving was not thriving and I needed to see to my mental health

I didn't realise how utterly miserable I was 

You did something that I did not think anyone could ever do
You inspired me, to actually achieve something meaningful and not leave it too late
I was always heading towards something but I was blocking myself out
Your insight and belief in me, gave me the key to the gate

And how my green eyes opened

Now I see truly how incredible I could be, I can see a shining path
A broken home and broken bones created my own gilded cage from which to peer from
But now I am on my own two feet getting to where I need to be
I have so much to catch up to as I have lingered for so long

On the edge of shadow and hate

So when I say how much you have helped me, its because you gave me true gifts
Your time, your wisdom , your patience and your belief
You remind me of myself in some ways , superstition, demons and  battles fought
Keeping your chin up despite the anxiety and battling with grief

I am in awe of you

So this is a thank you
From one tattered soul to another
Thank you for giving me trust in myself
When I couldn't fight my fight any longer

You saved me.