The Internal Prisoner

Time passes 
An hour 
Silence 
My mind begins to play imaginary nightmares 
A child that likes to play cruel games 
Disobedient as he ignores me 
My pleas for these unwanted thoughts to end fall on deaf ears 
The unlikely, the twisted scenarios rewind and play 
Rewind and replay 
My fears come alive consuming me internally 
Images of my worst nightmare 
Keep my anxiety roaring as I struggle to just make the spinning stop
I live in a fantasy I’ve created 
One that I can never leave 
A prisoner in my mind and I the only inmate 
Serving a time of 25 to life I suffer 
I ask for the probation of happiness 
Mercilessly it gives me it to me temporarily 
Only to strengthen the chains of my despair as the process relapses 
I die every night and am reborn in the morning
 An endless war that will will never be won
I ask myself if happiness is real
Is there a way to escape these walls I have built 
I look for the key, I look so desperately 
I look for eternity
Time passes 
An hour
Silence