The misery in me

I’m a soldier lost at war 

Fighting a battle against my demons

Even though you say you don’t see them 

I try so hard to defeat them

I just can’t seem to win

Where do I begin? 

There’s no good place to start 

I’m trapped inside my own subconscious 

Can you still love with a broken heart? 

Battling my addiction 1 on 1 again 

Wishing the drugs could numb all this pain

I wonder what’s there to even gain 

When I’m always the one to blame

Alone the tears fall like rain

All I want is to disappear

What am I doing here?  

I live in so much fear

when did I get so insecure?