The Missing Piece

I feel myself going, I feel myself slipping
My minds falling short, its barely gripping
My brain cells are dying, I feel like I’m tripping
There are no fountain drinks, so what am I sipping?
The pain found its way to my heart the chambers are slowly ripping
There's blood gushing out, its quickly dripping
You left and it became more than crippling
You’re the piece that I’m always missing
You said you heard me but you weren’t really listening
Your absence became my truth, it became your goal, and now you’re glistening
Somehow I accepted it without any good reasoning
You became less important to me when you stabbed me in the heart
That was the day my life came crashing apart
If you didn’t want me, you should have kept it in your pants from the start

You make my heart beat faster than a bolt of lightning
I thought you’d be the one to hold me when my nights became frightening
I thought you’d be the one to shield me as my fear became heightening
I thought you’d be the one to help me when my life needed straightening
But you left once again, and this time, letting you back in is not happening
You’ll just always be the piece that I’m missing, the piece that I’m missing

Becoming physically ill, I look up to God and said “if he ain’t worth it, then give me a sign”
He replied back to me with “I’m sorry my child, I thought he was kind”
I broke down in tears, my dad don’t want me, I now wish he wasn’t mine
I need someone forever, not here and there or part time
Because of you I had to learn how to go and survive
Without you in my life and to let myself thrive
Thinking about you and missing you was always my weakness
But not anymore, I’m honestly not sorry, it’s my turn to rise
The bond that I hoped for, that I wanted, was something I dreamt
Because I never seen love or commitment in your eyes
I just got used to your bullshit and all your lies
My hearts bruised and broken, but don’t worry, you’ll never hear my cries

You make my heart beat faster than a bolt of lightning
I thought you’d be the one to hold me when my nights became frightening
I thought you’d be the one to shield me as my fear became heightening
I thought you’d be the one to help me when my life needed straightening
But you left once again, and this time, letting you back in is not happening
You’ll just always be the piece that I’m missing, the piece that I’m missing

I don’t want to play this game with you anymore
I don’t want to fall inside your traps anymore
Because all you’re going to do is hurt me some more
It’s come to the point where you need to go, 
Because I finally read the signs, and you’re not worth it no more

You’ll just always be the piece that I’m missing
The piece that I’m missing

Stephanie Davis
March 2021