The Moment

The moments we can’t seem to forget, but always seem to forgive
Are the moments we make a choice to either die, or a choice to fight and live 
When I say die, I don’t mean physically, I mean our hearts are dying from breaking inside
Trying so hard not to let you bother me, but it shows, trust me, I’ve cried
All the things you’ve done to me, all the things you’ve said to me, are slowly killing me
I just wanted to have a relationship with you, no strings attached, but you don’t let me live freely
You are the spawn of Satan, someone I wanted to trust so badly, but you never came peacefully
I’ve spent more than half my life trying to be who you wanted, who you craved for
But I couldn’t be someone I wasn’t, and you just couldn’t accept me, You tossed me out the door
You are someone who I should be able to confide in, but you make it so hard
I was dealt a horrible hand, but the one thing I needed the most, wasn’t even offered on a card
What I need is time, what I need is validation, what I need is a successful relationship
But you don’t understand me, or what I went through, because it was you who sunk my ship
By not being the person I needed, by not being my protector, but being someone who thought I was useless,
Because of what I went through, I’ve grown up with a lifestyle that’s a complete mess
You should have never came back, because life was great before....
Before I had a reminder of the person who tossed me out the door.

Stephanie Davis
May 2021