THE MONSTER THAT STILL HAUNTS
A charmer that`s what everyone,
all thought him
and i but hisĀ puppet that had
fallen for his cheeky grin
I felt like a trophy to his peers
that he needed to put on show
StruttingĀ like a peacock showing off
like a repeatedĀ debut
Not all was as it seemed though
the perfect couple, we were not
He had Ā terrible ragesĀ and i was
a target for these,Ā his first shot
Too many times to remember being
beaten, and thrown to the floor
Only to be taken in his armsĀ next day
him saying" i am sorry Mon amour"
How i carried on still loving him
i will neverĀ know
But in myĀ mind i thought i could
help change,hisĀ raging woe
It carried on but the last time came
when he threatened me with death
Held hostage at a house knife to throat
thinking this is my last breath
I managed to sweet talk him
told him everything, would be fine
But inside i was screaming frightened
of dying, atĀ his hand thisĀ time
So i ended itĀ fought a war
for many years to break free
He still stalked and hounded but
i was determined, to protect me
Seven years now have passed, last year
he was prosecuted once again
months of harassment
returning fear takingĀ over my brain
IĀ will not let him win though
I will ignore all his vile cruel taunts!
But deep in my mind Ā i never will forget
theĀ monster thatĀ still haunts.
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wow wow wow strong write,...not a good situationĀ
Hi Ā Mark Thank you for readingĀ
It was a bad situation hopefully its overĀ
Best wishes DebsĀ
Oh My God DEBS!!..... this is the worst thing I could have from a person such as yourself...... I'm sorry to say that in a strange way I can see why it took so long to break free...... your poetry reveals such a kind and loving spirit..... you probably DID think you could fix him....... personally, I think he should have been strung up by his balls!!...... to use a knife against a woman is just plain cowardly..... and abuse of the worst kind....... what amazes me, is the strength it took to break free from the situation and now you're producing some of the most loving poetry on this site...... also reading, and sharing poetry as well....... you're an unbelievable soul DEBS!!.....I feel honored that you shared this with us all....... couldn't have been easy.......I think I remember you referring to something like this before..... but not in such graphic detail....... almost felt like I was reading your private journal...... except that it was so poetically delivered........ I'm rambling now..... just that stuff like this gets my blood boiling........thanx again for sharing this DEBS!!..... hope you got a little relief from sharing it!!........ HUGZ!!.......T xo.Ā ?
Hi Ā Tony Ā I Ā thought when i wrote of this before it wasĀ
the last, but scars run deep.Ā IĀ am on a site forĀ
abused women reading some of their stories and tryingĀ
to help as best i could this morning brought this up in myĀ
my mind. It was a release i must admit.
I Ā think Karma shall one day be his, for all his cruelness
Thank you for your understanding commentsĀ
I appreciate them my friendĀ
Love n hugs Debs xo
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Awww!!....This got me crying...It breaks my heart to see women suffer for loving someone....I'm glad you've broken free....So many end up losing their lives to men they claim to love....Felt every word of this....so sorry Debs....you are a very strong woman
Lots of love
Hi Dear Rose Sometimes i write for a release of emotionsĀ
that are pent up in me rather than cry iĀ pour it out in a poemĀ
I`m sorry it made you cry ( Hugs)
Thank you for reading and Ā for your heartfelt commentsĀ
Lots of love DebsĀ
It's ok Debs....I'm glad you shared....You are a very strong woman...I pray God brings a perfect gentleman that would treat you like the fine lady that you are, give you all the love you deserve...and wipe the memory of this monster....so you won't remember this again...
a very big hug....
AWW Thank you Rose you have a beautiful kind soul
big hugs from me and
Lots of love Debs
DEB MONSTER REMINDS ME OF THAT TRUMP WHO IS RUNNING FOR ARE PREST AND I CALLED HIM A MONSTER MANY TIMES GREAT POEM THANK YOU PEACE AND LOVE TO YOU HUGS XXOOĀ
Hi Greg Thank you for reading
and your comments i appreciate
Peace and love to you too Debs xxoo
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Hey Debs, you have been through hell, one day word will get around that he beats women, he will one day meet the one who will show him how it feels, not that I am in favour of violence, I'm not,Ā but heĀ will beĀ shown how to act like a man. I believe in Karma and it will happen to him one day. I hope he learns from it.
I wish you all the best for your future. Love and hugs :-)
Hi Ā Bee Ā I too believe in Karma IĀ believe he will be accountable for what he did
what he still does,I did`nt know whether to post this, but it was for release
and also to say toĀ people who are being abused to get away from the abuserĀ
nobody deserves to be treated this way
Thank you for reading Ā for your understanding and your best wishes
love n hugs DebsĀ
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Debs I wasn't abused by my husband, I was tortured by my father. this is a horrid experience well written. If you ever need to talk I am only an email away!
Hi Lisa IĀ am so sorry to hear you were so hurt by yourĀ fatherĀ
it really beggars belief how badĀ some people are toĀ abuse and inflict painĀ
on someone who only loves them. IĀ thinkĀ i am in a better place now
although you never forget.Ā IĀ wrote this for release and
hopefully to help anyone who is in an abusive relationship to get out of it
Thanks so much for the offer to talkĀ
that works both ways my friend Ā Hugs DebsĀ
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I can definitely relate to this and it is a horribly traumatic thing to go through. I think it scars us particularly much so because we can't help feeling partially responsible because we rationalize their behavior and stay for more. Ā Hope you have moved past the PTSD and have found a happier relationship. Loving thoughts and peace sent your way. -Mimi. xx
Hi Ā Mimi I am sorry you relate to my write
I agree Ā it leaves scars i think because we love themĀ
Ā that is all we need to help change themĀ
Believing giving love can change to this type of person i now knowĀ
is ridiculous,i stayed far to long,to me this type of person never changeĀ
it is in them,
I am a lot better Thank you, IĀ hope you are too.
Thank you for kind wordsĀ
I send loving thoughts and peace back to youĀ
Best wishes Debs xx
Hi Dear Debs,
Usually, when you break something, it is seven years of bad luck. Ā But in your case, you have broken yourself of your addiction to him, and it has been seven years of good luck. Ā Congrats. Ā Stay strong and hopefully, the monster's only haunts will be the Gaol.
Hugs, Peace and Love,
xox Larry
Hi Dear Debs,
I am so sorry to see that you have suffered so at the hands of a monster such as he. Ā You are so strong to have extricated yourself from this terrible situation and I believe God has other wonderful plans for you. Ā God Bless.
All my love,
Linda xxx
Hi Ā Larry Thank you for your thoughts on this oneĀ
yes i believe i am free of him, bad memoriesĀ
arise at times but all is good nowĀ
Love n hugs Debs xox
Hi Linda Thank you for your kind words andĀ
thoughts IĀ am in a much Happier place nowĀ
Lots of love to you Debs xxx