The Note I Leave....

Trapped In this void,
Can’t fix my mistakes,
Hand shakes as I grab the blade.
Trade blood to feel,
That’s the deal I made with my demons.

I was so sure I would win in the end,
But the end has won me,
I will wear the key like a golden necklace,
Breath at a steady pace, 
I ran life’s race for as long as I could...

Nows the time to speak my mind,
Just letting my hand glide,
I abided yours rules,
Was always sinking in pools of tears, 
But this year I escaped...

I pray, I really do,
That all the best in life will come to you,
Even though you’ll forget about me in a year or two,
Don’t even lie and say “that’s not true!”,
You know what you put us through...

All I can say now is sorry
I was always chary of you though 
You saw the glow in my eyes fade 
You saw where the blade had cut
But now all you see is your dead daughter....

I’m running out of room to write
I’ll never forget those nights...
The ones where we snuggled...
The ones where I huddled in 
blankets to block the shouting,
But tonight’s the night I’m flying ..

Please don’t cry,
I’m just right up there in the Sky 
“Why did you do this?” you ask.
Watch me be buried in my casket,
And lie about how happy I was, 
Because you’re too scared to face the truth.

I’m sorry that it ended this way...
But I’m glad i didn’t stay here.
My mind was clear when I did this,
But i will miss you when I die. 
Goodbye ~~