The only thing that lasts

The only thing that lasts is control
Control over food

Even if its hard

I can never give up

The only thing that lasts is deciding 

Deciding between life and death 

I want to stay 

Buy the Pain won't go away

Tho only thing that lasts is comparing 

Comparing myself to others

They hit the Jackpot 

And I do not

The only thing that lasts is hope

Hope to get better

I can see light at the end of the tunnel

But it's not the final

The only things that last are dreams

Dreams of happiness

I want to smile

Never the less I want to die