The Truth

taking the time
to get it back in the game
i am contemplating suicide
but my love is on my brain

how will she make it
if i leave her all alone
my little girl needs me
while her mother isnt home

this stress is killing me
its eating me away
my life is starting to be pointless
i have nothing else to say

with her mother gone
i dont know what to do
how do i work 24/7
and still have time for two

im loosing my ways
to get some sanity
i feel like im trapt
inside my undetermined reality

IM breaking inside
im becoming dark
im pissed all the time
my demons are at large

I tried to hide it
but darkness takes over
im lost in a cloud
am i deadbeat father

im still around her 
but my life doesnt give
i try to be the best
but instead i never win

her mother done past
im the only one she has
i try to show her that i care
but never do i laugh

the good times are gone
i have nothing left to give
my heart died to everything
including my kid

her mother took it
straight to the grave
a thug is hard
 atleast that is what they say

but how do i continue
without getting in the mix
i got to provide
but not by the way i live

i never meant to show her
the life of a thug
but when bills gotta be paid
its got to be enough

so now my daughter knows
the cold truth of the matter
her mother got shot
but the bullet was for her father