never forgotten

life full of struggles
where do i begin
was it the last drip of the bottle
that caused your life to end

im trying to understand
where i went wrong
i tried to show you i cared
but you were always in to him

I hate him for how i treated you
you deserved better
i tried to be the man
but you always ran towards the abuser

i tried to get you out
give you a better way
but no you stayed 
getting beaten everyday

i loved you
and wanted to be yours
i wanted to be the man
that you truly deserved

i stopped drinking
smoking and doing drugs
i did everything i could
to show you your worth

to show you you could it
just like i did
but everytime he put a hand on you
you ran towards the substances

i wanted to be your safe haven
a person you could count on
but instead he beat you
until there was nothing to be beat on

i miss you everyday
and i promised myself this
if i ever see the bastard
it would be the final and the end

i don't play with the drama
i tell it how it is
i miss and love you babe
your death i wont forget

i dont know what trully happened
did you OD to get away
or did he force them down your throat
when you tried to run away

did he hit you
until you didnt move
or did you do the drugs with him
in order to get rid of the abuse

i dont understand
and now i will never
i miss you baby
our love always and forever