The world is a vampire.

Novice attainment,
I am the yearning,
dreams bigger than God,
none have nutriment,
all is lost,
all is nothingness,
nothingness is infinite compassion,
I forget what I cannot recall,
I am bereft with grievous grief,
novice gratitude and expert cynicism,
the world is a vampire. 

tip of the hat to smashing pumpkins in hat last line and the title of this poem.