Three Months

There's a girl in this world.

She would live in the shadows holding on to promises and whispers.

This girl was popular in the world that mattered to her. She moved half way through the year.

After Three Months.

That girl was okay until she grew up. She struggled being the smartest always thinking. So she stopped. Soon the sun went behind the clouds. The features she was able to hide in the darkness were visible when there's nowhere to hide. She realized that it wasn't when people talked behind her back that hurt it was when they were nice to her and turn around aren't.

She struggled for Three Months.

Because of her trouble she went to summer school met someone for three weeks he put a smile on her face, through hugs, jokes, and words. For three weeks she was happy. But they rushed and she was hurt while with him......

For Three Months.

Soon her anxiety, sleep disorder, fear, stomach ache (stress of getting hurt), thoughts, fake smiles, and worry all came back and didn't leave. (These were with and without) This girl is beautiful. She shines bright but doesn't know, nor feel special. She is a diamond in a sea of coal but she feels like a rock in the marianas trench. She's learned the hard way don't trust anyone, because everyone can hurt you and easily believe it's your fault.

She found friends through this and one was always there for her while the others said they were. It never felt like it. She thought it was just that she is so fragile or is over reacting. She thought friendship meant sacrifice and if that meant have the laughs on you no problem.

Until that Three Month mark.

She kept her mouth shut to afraid of saying the wrong thing so she just laughed along to the others. Whenever she spoke around them all they seemed to like to say in response is ," NO! Just no!" So she never spoke just laughed and swallowed everything down with her drink. All the joke reminding her of her painful past and other things people would say after saying something like that.

But that Three Month mark came.

She thought if she just left whatever will happen it would help if she left before the tears came like every mark of anything. But she was two seconds away from leaving when they did it for her and she lost friends. While it wouldn't of been the first time she has it hurts.

Mostly that because it was on the Three Month mark.

But soon her pain was toward her ex and something of anger toward him somehow got misunderstood. Now her she is crying because of his lying and that dran mark is only a few months away from her current happiness. So now she sits in her room, class, school. bus. Wherever she is scared biting her nails.

Because something happened Three Months ago.

Because once again her life tumbled down and she's alone. And soon it will happen again and again she will be alone.

Beware the Three Month mark.

It will sneak up on you and ruin the fun you had. The higher you raise the further you'll fall. And lose it all. If only they could hear my call. It hurts very much to know very easily that it's her fault for saying hi.

She learned the fun is in the climb. Make as many memories while you can so it's easier to smile. A note from forever ago from an old friend. A picture where your ,"Totally Chic", A video of you two and a shared friend, a class grade, a sleep-over. Everyday she questions if choosing to officially be done with them was a good idea or bad. Sometimes she knows other times she doesn't. It hurts that people she was once close to are happy. But when they hurt you even while you're gone for reasons unrelated to what the Three Month mark did she knows that leaving was the best idea ever when she stops crying that is.

From smiles to tears very easily her tear rate was back to a normal and she couldn't feel her heart and still can't. But there are people in her life who know how to keep her smiling and be there for her knowing how fragile she is without her telling them they just know because they're her true friends, the ones who have magical friend powers. She does miss the others but knows that they're on a different wavelength than her. She's glad to see them happy and she's glad that her friends are helping her see what happiness is. But thankfully she's happy again. And now she knows that the best therapy is with friends for

Three Months or more.