Throughout My Faith

I've believed in many things
Practiced many religions, 
And learned about life in the process 
For a while, I didn't believe in God 
Because I was lost in my own emotions,
Confusions, illusions of control,
Trying to manifest instead of praying 
Until I reached a point,
Something inside of me broke,
Like a basin of water that cracked 
Before the liquid escaped
Leaving it empty 
I felt like the light in my soul had been ripped away
As I walked alone not knowing anything
Each rock left me stumbling
Every bloody cut was another reminder of how far I had fallen
But God never let me go
He just allowed me to explore my options 
Even when I pushed him away 
He still had faith in me 
In my darkest moments, he was the one I went to,
I think during my exploration,
That deep down I knew who my allegiance was to
Whether I ranted at him, blamed him or cried on his shoulder,
Throughout the terrible things and the good things that I have done
He has never given up on me 
No matter how many times I have left 
And came back into to his embrace 
He has allowed me to grow and to change 
Never condemning me for trying to see other things 
On this journey, on my path to faith,
He has never let me take one step alone
Knowing that one day I'll come back to him
To my home for good.