Trauma

11
You touched me, scarred me for life.
Taught me my body was a vacant object, empty enough for men to take a pit stop and get pleasure from.

13.
I trusted you.
Shared my
Stories, fears and grief.
You taught me I shouldn't.
You taught me
My trauma was
Something I caused
Something I wanted
To happen.

15.
I finally
Understood.
You were
Right.
My body was
Worthless.
And so was
I.

16.
I met you.
You slowly gained my trust.
People weren't that
Horrible
Right?

You touched my body
Without my consent.
You said you didn't need it.
Because I wanted it.
I wanted it so bad.
That's why I was there.
Was what you said.

I felt like dying.
All over again.
I cried.
Tears of pleasure
Was what you called
Them.

16.5.
Again.
I fell for you.
Someone new.
You made me feel
Special.
For someone who didn't have
Any sense of self worth.
Forced me to pleasure you.
Out of love.
Was what you called it.
It wasn't love.
It was indulgement
For your amusement.

Never have you
Loved me.
Never did you
Care.