Truly My Dad 2018

I've got to say, this one was tough.
I even thought I'd try and bluff
my way through all the reasons why,
it's never good to make dads cry...
I practiced my acerbic wit,
but this time it was really #!!#….
for nothing could assuage the urge,
the overwhelming need to purge,
with outpourings of what YOU mean!
   You are the daddy from my dream....
The dream where I am lost and sad,
because my friends all have a dad.
Feeling scared and so alone....then....
you slip my hand in your own
and whisper " I am always here."
" Even when it seems unclear."
You took me on. God that was brave!
You KNEW how bad I could behave,
but patiently you won my heart
and trust.....and THEN the fights did start!
Now let me ponder? What came first?
Oh yes! The FIVER! How I cursed!
….You served me gravy so congealed,
that ALL the dinner was concealed!
NOT that it was edible...
It's foulness was incredible!!!
There's only one word for your mood,
sheer ORNERY about your food!
Then suddenly, you brandished high,
a FIVER, with triumphant sigh!
And thrusting it at me with glee
said " Buy your cheeseburger 'Goody'!"
Right then I wished to punch your nose!
Or kick you where the sun don't goes!
For as we both were so aware....
Scottish notes weren't legal fare!
Number two, I think you'll find,
while digging deeply in your mind,
should cause a flash of light to spark
the memory of that awful lark.....
   Though I appeared both mean and tight,
refusing to walk 'Mutts' that night,
forget not, I was mere sixteen,
selfishness, a teenage gene.....
Yet when I sweetly begged of you,
" Please daddy, change the bulb that blew?"
Pure rigid in your stance, you sat...
" I told you no! and that is that! "
Time moved on and WE grew up.
   I got drunk from Cupid's cup....
So proud, you gave away my hand.
Back then you didn't understand,
that I'm just like a boomerang,
I  keep on coming back again!!!
A second time and then one more,
before you finally slammed that 'door'.
You pleaded " Donna, I beseech? "
" Don't make me write ANOTHER speech!!! "
I could have wrote ten thousand lines,
but that's just outward, visual signs,
I didn't hide with jokes and stuff
because I didn't want to bluff...…
   Your nurturing right from the start
makes you my TRUE dad in my heart...…..

For my dad on father's day 2018
I love you.xxx