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Droplets of blood fall to the ground 
Satisfying the craving that I hold within 
I stare at my reflection in those tear shaped drops
Until they deteriorate 
Sinking into the cracks beneath the tile flooring 
I drum my fingers on the edge of the tub 
Rubbing against the smooth ceramic 
The blade drops down to the floor 
Bouncing 
Creating that gratifying clink
The urge to reach for it overwhelms me 
Passing back and forth 
Filling up every empty space in my brain 
I squeeze my eyes closed 
Ridding my mind of the relentless voices
My thumb presses against the jagged edge
I feel myself reaching over 
The metal sending shockwaves through my body
I skim the blade over my thigh 
Caressing the skin
Causing goosebumps to form 
It slowly digs deep and lines start to appear
Covering up old scars 
I try and fight myself 
Wincing in pain 
I relax my fingers 
Letting the blade sink 
It swirls around the clear blue water
Overpowering it
With the darkest shade of crimson 
 I can feel my eyes moving from side to side
Rapidly
So I allow myself to sink down into the water
Letting it bubble around me 
I can feel my breath starting to steady 
As I let the blade slowly fall down the drain