unrelenting pain

it's confusing when there's sunshine since all I feel is rain
I've tried for years and just can't stop this unrelenting pain
always painting on this smile so that nobody will see
the struggle deep within my soul these cuts are far too deep
I sit and watch the midnight sky as I dream about the moon
I always tell myself this lie...that I will see you soon
you know I've heard a time or two that life is never fair
words like that they seem to flow from mouths that just don't care
nightmares they try and swallow me they seep in through the cracks 
I walk unknowing in the dark and brace now for impact
my heart is bent and broken they've ripped apart my soul
empty drained and consumed by pain I've strayed into this hole
now paralyzed with fear I am watching from her view
the grave was dug-but dug for 2-and I have no clue what to do