Unstable

Since the beginning I knew something was different, 

It stared me dead in the face but just couldn’t admit it, 

Ive always felt a bit off so I kept my distance, 

I heard how they spoke about me yet said nothing and just listened, 

There was plenty wrong but I rarely let it show, 
 

Backed up all that emotion forcing furious tears to flow, 

Built up burden being alone switching from home to home, 

Wanted to build a bond with my siblings but they were already grown, 

I was raised to be a better man but can’t stand the one I am, 

Trying to change and focus this rage, 

So I can deal with my problems like I’m playing spades, 

Acknowledgement of my problems sent me spiraling straight to the bottom, 

From these four walls I’m surrounded but my mind escaped which kept me grounded, 

I feel the path I am on is not the one I chose, 

As long as it guarantees my soul can wander into the great unknown.