To Love Like You

I don’t understand why I should feel guilty 
I don’t understand why it’s supposed to be wrong
Cause the last month you just showed me love

The answers I am seeking 
Maybe I don’t want to hear
But you know my willingly heart 
And right now I’m at rest 
Cause I feel so blessed 
That you can just turn my life around 
And make confusion run for its life 

I felt confused cause I’ve been hearing my whole life that it’s against your will
But I can’t change the fact that it feels right for me
And i know you appreciate my honesty 

You see my heart 
When actions don’t add up 
You see my brain
Twisting everything you say around 
Looking for logic 
Doubting and believe lies
Trying to make sense of all the loud noise thats inside 

Should I feel guilty
cause they all say it’s a sin?
Cause I can’t find a clear verse from your word
That says it is
You created us in your image as man and as wife
And logically that’s wonderful if the plan is to push out children all our lives

The Bible can be misunderstood 
The Bible can be misread 
And people often twist your words 
To satisfy their needs in hand 
I’m scared I’ll do the same 
I’m scared that I’m to blind to see
But yet you say: rest my child
I will reveal the truth in its own time 
So be patient my dear 
And do not fear
Cause you’ve experienced that I’m near 

I feel your peace 
I feel your presence 
I feel it’s time to humble myself in obedience 
To face the consequences of my actions 
It’s time to schedule
To set a date
To sit down and talk 
To push aside pride, 
explain and pour out my heart 
To admit my wrongs 
And to take a stand
I don’t need to feel guilty for loving her the way -  I am
Cause right now you’re teaching me how to love like you 
But you also showing me the pain she daily walks through 
You’re breaking my heart for what breaks yours
And I can feel the hurt in her silent voice 
In her unspoken words that she hasn’t yet said
I can feel the emptiness 
The sorrow she process 
Cause it’s so much underneath 
That’s buried 
Forgotten and displaced 
But yet she proceeds with a big fake smile on her face 
Cause the pride is all she’s ever known 
And the pride keeps holding on 
Like poison in her soul
Like venom in her veins
She tries to survive in this world
In the world she don’t feel she belongs 
But deep down she knows 
That if it wasn’t for her friend: pride 
She would have ended her life