Veterans Suicide

Crossed legged and soaked in grief,
A dark moment, so deep and brief,
I want no pain, to feel relief,
The gun barrel rests between my teeth. 

My family so blessed and there,
I want to love and I want to care,
I want it to end and still be fair,
But I am scarred, so much to bear. 

Where is the help for my broken soul,
So much death has taken its toll,
The void inside me is just like a hole,
Why did we do that last patrol. 

I am sorry mum I can't go on,
The funeral man can play my song,
Just hear my cries, I won't be long,
I'm sure I'll be missed when I am gone.