Warm Showers

I sit in the shower, letting the hot water run over me.
My back…
My neck...
My arms…
My legs...
And also my heart.

But I still feel oh so cold…
Why do I trust to so easily?

Water trickles down my spine.

Why did I believe your pretty lies?
Maybe your blue eyes tricked mine…

But that is okay, because I know this time…
As the water washes me clean of all the dirt,
I know I will also be clean of you and your part.

And I will forget… (But maybe I won’t)
And my mind will move on… (Even if my heart can’t)

Just as the water makes streams down my body….
And just as the night breaks into dawn…
I still sit in this shower letting the warmth of the water,
Melt you off me.

And no, I will not drown…
I will pick up my heart, gently and soft…
I will not be like you.
Like the water that owns most of our earth,

You do not own me.
I am my own…
And my own, I shall be.

I will not fall apart.