Was/Am?

Was I the spark,
Or the flint,
Or was I the burn?

Was I the cause,
Or the effect,
Or a mere aside?

Was I the stab,
Or the blade,
Or was I the blood?

Was I the question,
Or the answer,
Or was I the doubt?

Was I the make-believe,
Or the meantime,
Or was I the test subject?

Was I the scream,
Or the shock,
Or was I the past?

Was I the construct,
Or the truth,
Or the unwanted mirror?

Was I a choice,
Or an option,
Or simply expendable?

Am I the wound,
Or the scar,
Or am I the pain?

Am I of any consequence,
Or with any life,
Or am I all in just vain?