"We Belong Together"- Melancholy

What I turned down for you is haunting. You were there taking away the pain at last. That didn't mean you wanted me, Ill tell myself anything. "I jumped in too fast". Now I'll lose myself. The only part of you I had. Now I see innocence in the mirror when I see myself. It's hurts now but mere weeks from now it won't be as bad. I'll begin again with someone new. It won't keep me up at night about what they doing. Then maybe I'll forget about you. The good parts that is just to let myself know what you've ruined. My mind and heart has forbid me from saying anything. This is not up for debate anymore. It causes me to not pick up when you ring. It slowly dragged me to hold myself down as you kill me cause I honestly have nothing to say anymore. When they dig me up I hope they can salvage what they can. The taste of my joyful tears won't be as bland. And when I do I hope again I can be friends with this broken man. So he'd be fixed and I'll understand. "We belong together." I used to tell myself "no not me." Out of all the people you know me better. I am now in a relationship with melancholy. I'll see your face again, not bound to me. You'll see mine not bound to you eventually. Thing is you were always free. And I was where you wanted me to be. Caught between what's good and what's bad. I'll always chosen the wrong thing. So I poisoned myself cause that's all I had. Did it so much I grew to think that's all tomorrow will bring. I don't have pills and weed to drown myself in. It's too practical to die without feeling. This is the only drug that's proven. To kill you more than anything. I poison myself with you. You're not the actual drug, I'd hoped for. You just bagged it up and made it look new. When I get it forreal, and I'll know it's real, I'll want more.