What are Rhymes? I only Know Hate

I walk with no destination in mind when I'm sad. 
If my suffering brought me to this beautiful mysterious path, then it was worth suffering.
But I still can't get over my feelings towards you.
When you are nearby
I wish you were gone
When I see you
I wish I were blind
When I smell your stench
I want to hold my breath
When I hear your voice
I want to stab my eardrums with your sharp stinging words so that I may go deaf
But I still love and forgive you
And I want to pray for you
Alone and far away