What did I do?

My goodness LORI !!....Wow!!..,.,.what a thoroughly heart rending write...or "Diary Entry"......YES!! THAT'S what it felt like.......like I was reading someone's diary entry.......There is so much to say here....so much pain....so much self torture....so much to digest that it floats above the Love that is so amazingly moving....yes I said LOVE.....because only a person that Love's deeply could possibly have written these VERY compelling words.....as though you needed to scream to the world of the suffering you are enduring.....

                  I think EVERY poet that reads this will be able to relate to it completely.......Poets are some of the most perceptive people that walk the earth....and because they are capable of digesting and then conveying what they feel..... it becomes so easy for them to inflict self loathing on themselves when their personal life becomes difficult or unbearable.....poets become 'at risk' for self harm when we start to analyze our own circumstances......the real issue here is that poets feel SO,SO, very deeply that we can blindside ourselves and come to false conclusions....ESPECIALLY where love is concerned......as soon as I read the first 5 lines i knew that I was reading poetry from a writer who is filled with love ~
                       ~ "48 long, drawn out. unbearable years entirely alone.."

You have children (grown now) but that is the kind of love that never truly dies......that umbilical chord is there forever......even when we don't want it to be........I PINNED this poem because of its unbelievably powerful phrasing and stunning clarity.......it nearly bleeds on the paper....that's how well conveyed your thoughts are on this subject matter.....in fact, it's so well written I can hear this as movie dialogue in a VERY complex "personal relationship" type film!!....Yes!!.....Dialogue......try reading this aloud and you'll know what I'm getting at.....You don't really need to change a single word....Just read it aloud.... like you're angry.... and it will come to life......Miss Mack I apologize for rambling on here but I truly feel that this 'poetic dialogue' deserves all 5 stars and I'd give more If I could.....so again, please forgive my rambling and I pray that your having written this all down has helped you in the days to come......and PLEASE ~ never stop writing dear poet sister.......and reach out when the going gets tough....you never know which relative or friend may surprise you with their love and appreciation!!.......I for one....am honored to have read these VERY moving words........LOVE & ROCKETS!!.......T xo