What She Is To Say

I am  not sure what she is to say 
It has been my constant worry all day 
Will she have a stable mind?
Or will she fall over,give in,and leave me praying for a rewind?

I am  not sure what she is to say
But I can tell you that it determines the future, the rest of my days 
I cannot explain just how it feels to watch the sun loose its rays

I wonder if it is going to repeat the past
If it will re-play the times, when my life almost didn't last
If it is to do so, I am not sure what I am to do

The times of laying awake all night, the days of fear
The times in which I felt that there was no one near.