Who am I?

When you controlled how I sat, how I walked, how I talked, I became a porcelain form. You pulled strings when you desired, I there, whenever you beckoned. When I broke beyond all forces you pinned me down. Your rules, my life, both collided. What love I envied yet couldn't gain. Were you proud of what you tamed? Those shards I cut my heart against every night wondering what love was. Every breath I took was falsely given, never had a reason to go beyond what life had given me. What right had I to my own life? You striped me of the little innocence I had. Peace corrupted, living life on edge. The jewels that adorned me couldn't even shine a light through the dark. you kept seeking money for happiness you were never going to get. Blinded by everything. If only I could intoxicate myself, forget all those times I cried, being so, alone. If only eyes could speak the many emotions my heart felt. Flickers of bad memories confront me. Would you even understand if I told you? You bite your teeth at my behavior, why don't you see? You can't fine dine your way through life. You can't pick and choose. You can't always oppress me. Please. Take me back to the high stool that allowed me to feel the wind that would carry me through my struggles. Caress me, while I weep. Take me back. I want my fingers to move with rythem. I want to be alive. Please.