Who Knows

I had tricked three women into loving me based on my imagination on who I should be…

I had engaged two of them, that went so well (not) that I couldn’t put the next one through the same pain…

I had never felt loved from the one woman that means the most, when I was young I feel I did but as an older kid to adult the love got lost, she always picked me second to the various men!!!

I have one wife, who I’m happily married to, she understands my past and loves me unconditionally. I was still a mess when we got together but she refused to let go and motivated me to get better.

It turns out unconditional love really is the answer, without the past or the other women I took for granted, maybe I wouldn’t of felt the pressure to change? 

On the other hand, if they loved me like she does, then who knows what would’ve happened! 

What if my mom was a good example of being a loving and nurturing mother? Maybe I still would be with my first heartbreak, or maybe I wouldn’t of ever felt the need to be loved by a woman, who fucking knows?