Whole Again

Whole Again

I’ve cried all of the broken tears

     releasing my doubting fears

 not knowing where a single moment may lead-

  a thought, a action.

And what came to meet

 is something I’ve never dreamed.

I know now how it is,

    my eyes are opened

my heart expressed.

It is quaking, shaking in its core

how the situation can restore

     I have no idea

I only know whats been,

    and the present is larger than it seems.

Yet context is required

   I never thought life could’ve

to this point, aspired.

So I strared into space

  my mind in a frenzied race

to make sense of it all.

The reason to never be grasped

    into deepness I feel I fall.

For air I gasped – and as the situation

came to light, my thoughts went aflight.

Oh this pain, will it ever go away?

  In a moment like this I pray

I will stand strong

    because this is something I can handle –

 I will never be dealt with something I can’t handle.

But in a moment of weakness I crumble,

 the dam breaks, my heart cracks and

    I know the truth.

I’ve been set free – but maybe I didn’t want to be.

 Maybe I liked being in my fantasy...

But it’s for the best, I can’t live my life

 in a dream world.

So now I know piece by piece

    each shattered piece

will be mended and I will be whole again.

By: Colene van Heerden