Why?

Why did this happen to me?
Born to be depressed and shy
with horrible anxiety
 
Why did this happen to me?
Born to become an addict
an alcoholic junkie
 
Why did this happen to me?
To grow up molested by family
until the age of nineteen
 
Why did this happen to me?
To grow up always second best to
my sissy
 
Why did this happen to me?
To grow up a chubby and ugly kid
with no self-esteem
 
Why did this happen to me?
Someone afraid to talk to people
someone antisocially
 
Why did this happen to me?
To be so promiscuous
embarrassed because of this
sickness
 
Why did this happen to me?
to have three kids
but never married
 
These are just some of the questions
that twirl in my head over and over
again
When I look back at all the horror and
agony I endured-I’m amazed I prevailed,
but that’s exactly what I did