Why did you go

Where are you

why did you go

i wasn't ready

i wasn't clear

i no longer cherish

the moments of one

the memories that shone

in the beauty of dual acceptance

seems there's nothing else i feel

except fear

covering fear

upon fear

my days seem like

a mud slide catastrophe 

on a rain soaked mountain side

nose diving

into infinity

all the while

the heartache i feel has devoured me

eating away at me like cancer

i no longer trust

i no longer yearn

the reason or passion for life

i continually ask

why did you go

maybe it's the answer

that I will never know