Woke Up Today

I woke up today 
well damn thats a start 
How optimistic I am 
for I know some have not 
That’s just life though 
one day  you’re  thriving 
The next you’re barely 
SURVIVING 
Today marks day 8 
since I took my last sip 
May not seem like much 
or a big difference to some 
But to me I see and notice 
how little things are different 
Like my watch, it’s no longer 
tight on my wrist, it fits loosely 
My stomach isn’t bloated 
My energy does seem a little 
fatigued but that’s a normal 
side effect 
My brain and body are used
to operating the last 11 years
on alcohol as the nightly fuel
source, so it takes some time 
to shake the curse and get things back on the right course 
but the good news is I’m staying strong and most importantly my subconscious is my biggest support , the same voice in my head for 25 plus years telling me of fears from a blurred childhood, failed relationships and past is my strong point now, who would’ve thought 
Well today not only marks day 8 but it also marks day 1 as I’m making the leap in faith today on May 23rd to go and seek about learning about Gods word 
sure I’m not excited about the awkwardness of day 1 at a new church as everyone can be cheesy and over the top but maybe that’s the wrong thoughts to have , I don’t think it’s awkward to go into a random bar in a new town and drink and dance among strangers so why are our minds programmed so different when it comes to things that benefit versus things that can hurt or be a bad influence ..... well the devil works in mysterious ways is all I can think or maybe we just don’t love ourselves enough to have the confidence to know we deserve better , well no different than a hole in the wall , the right church will take you for who you are and accept all but If they don’t then just like that bar you have had  a bad experience at you can leave and try a different one 
OPTIONS , for the record I’m not a very religious person at all but I will say what’s the worst thing that comes from gathering once a week with people that all believe in a higher power and have faith versus not ? That is the question I asked myself when weighing the good versus the bad and realized the good outweighed and won, so here I go with my best foot forward , standing tall and most importantly doing it sober 
Happy Sunday everyone !