Written Feelings

If I could go back in time, I would for you,

But I didn't even notice how time just flew,

So many things I’d like to do or say,

Can’t seem to find something to make you stay,

I know I haven’t tried hard enough in this,

And forever you will be the one I’ll miss,

You were and will be the clear in my sky,

I always thought that the two of us could fly,

No words, poem or novel can describe the way I feel,

Like thousands of swords are flying towards me going for the kill,

Drown in sadness and regret I’ll be,

Maybe one day you will finally see,

I don’t know if you ever cared about me,

But in my heart, for you, I grew a tree,

I swear that forever I’ll keep you in my mind,

It’s a shame we didn’t have time to bind,

I remember the time you said you’re lost without me,

I was really glad that you didn’t let me be,

Too proud to admit I really needed you,

I could never stay mad at you, that, I knew,

Too deep in my fear I was staying,

Inside the darkness I was praying,

To have the courage to confess to you,

Did not know what else was there to do,

I don’t know if you’ll ever get to read this,

Hugging you will be a thing forever I’ll miss,

Can’t get your smell out of my head,

Writing this, while alone I lay in my bed,

If one day in this place no longer will I be,

There is nothing for you to do but agree,

Don’t sadden yourself, I am to blame,

There’s no need for you to carry the pain,

Please don’t ever forget my stupid hair,

I trust you so I will not make you swear,

Even if I never said it, nor did I give a clue,

I’ll never let go of you, because I love you,

To me it seems that we have a lot in common,

Something rare for someone like me, who has fallen,

Yet a difference I kind of felt we had,

Nothing that would make me sad, nor mad,

I hope you’ll remember the warmth of my body,

I’ll confess to you right now, I miss it badly,

As I’ll forever remember the feel of your hand,

While looking at the hourglass, slipping sand,

I am sorry for everything I have done,

Not long ago, was a time when we had fun,

I shall take the blame entirely in this,

I’ll take everything with me into the abyss,

In this poem I have put everything I feel,

Somehow I am hoping one day I will heal,

Whatever you ask of me, I will do,

Although I cannot take back the chances that I blew.