Written Warning

It's like you spent all of your years, all of your strength,,,and persevered, toe to toe, with all of your fears....

Constructing your hulkish tower of monument....PRICELESS...

Just
so you could piss on your mentors from the top of it....Giving all
moral government the finger as you stepped off of the edge...

A million miles high only to find you STILL can't fly...damnit

Ever the narcissist, you thought it'd make you famous....

Thought that you were too nimble to be eaten by concrete.....

You
were so eager to defy the obvious result of your lethal leap....In
spite of what your miscalculation would inevitably bleed...

And in spite of what losing you would do to ME...

And, DAMNIT, I hate when it comes to this...Being the only one left willing to sift through your bullshit...

It leaves me solely responsible for shaking you awake...To kidnap you from your poisoned Neverland...

Forced to play the dickhead demanding some ludicrous fucking ransom...

And to accept that you will hate me so that I can keep you safe....

Yeah.....DAMN this part....

Witnessing another shadow leech onto your face....

Watching your heart break.....Before you even know it's done...

Still too self obsessed to realize you're in pain

I yearn to feed you amorous lies...

To build your ego further up, agree that your passion alone is enough,

To render truth to your version of the statement made by your serpentine life....

But
I cannot pull you from this bloody sea if you won't take the rope...And
I cannot show the world the you I still see if you remain  only the foe
they've come to know....

You took my offering of enlightenment, and simply tossed it away after coddling it a minute....

It's like you spent all of my years, all of my strength...

Making me cherish you, adore every ashen echo of you....

Just to prove you could raise a white flag from me..

You...Only you....

Only you can void my dreams....

So sickening, the fulfillment you get from being devastating....

Making trophies of every allegation that you are fucking crazy...

You can't stay drunk from the chaos forever....You'll crash into the hangover that won't get better...

And a guarded part of me will die when it does all catch up to you....

You'll helplessly recall the times I warned you...

How desperately I wanted to...God, I wanted to...

But I just couldn't stop you.....

                                                                                       Rachel H. Howe