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I'm in love with you And would do anything for you. I love you but lately I've been finding myself more into temptation. More into being satisfied and to satisfy. Even if it means I have to lie and hide it.

And I know he would see me in pure disgust but I couldn't stop. I was caught hard in lust. The way my number 2 held me and sexed me was life. I cherished my man, but this man never gave me any strife. He put me first even though I was someone's wife. 

The way he kissed me was as if I was his own. Even though it was wrong, it was the best feeling. And if my husband found out I would die. Temptation had taken over and I couldn't explain why.

It's just something I had to do. Sometimes I'd think about my family and feel so bad. Sometimes I'd think about how I've broken a commandment and get mad.

Praying at night that I'd find it in myself to go home. You know, return to the throne that my husband thought he'd put me on.

My family was never aware of my affair. Probably because I didn't show my unhappiness. Lord I didn't care, cause this was the purest joy.

Most of you wouldn't understand. I fended for this man. Fucked around and had dreams about this man. Saw shit I never seen ...with him.

You couldn't compare him to my husband. Every encounter I had no choice but to love it. It was like a curse he had on my body.

Never thought I'd have such a rush. Something way past a crush. Like I said it was lust....for my spouses Bestfriend.