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Yes/No

Shame

Yes/No

How do I say no?
It’s such a small word but it’s so heavy,
I know I should tell you no,
Ā I know I should want to tell you no but I can’t help myself,Ā 
when you kiss me,Ā 
when you hold me,Ā 
when you lead me to the bed,
Ā my voice hitches and my heart skips because I should say no,
but I say yes because I want to say yes even though I know it’s wrong,
I hold that shame,Ā 
the shame of telling you yes because I know that as soon as you’re done you will be telling HER you love her,Ā 
you’ll tell her you’re sorry that you took so long having a cigarette or that you got carried away on your phoneĀ 
and she’ll believe you because you say ā€˜I love you’ 
when moments ago I felt the warmth of your body against mine,Ā 
the linger of your lips pressed on to mine, the tickle of your touch it sticks in my mind as I sit feeling used, feeling lost and confused…
There was a time where those ā€˜I love you’s were mineĀ 
and I could see that in your eyes,
Ā now I see indifferenceĀ 
and that is only if I’m lucky enough to not be turned around so you don’t have to see me…so you can picture her….
ā€˜S*x is s*x’ you say it means,
nothing to youĀ 
but you know it would mean something to her,
so I must once again I hold on to my shame,Ā 
my shame of being your shame,Ā 
of being your secret,
Ā so that emotionally she will stay yours and you can stay hers…
so I must stay mine.
Maybe I say yes because it means I get to hold on to the only part of you I can still have,Ā 
maybe it’s why I feel so dirty afterwards because I know I should have said no.
It’s why I use every excuse to touch you…
ā€œCan you help me upā€ and I leave my hand hover in yours for a moment
ā€œYou have a stray hairā€ as I brush it back cherishing the softness
ā€œtheres something In my eyeā€ I say so that you will look into them with something other than indifferenceĀ 
ā€œLook at thisā€ as I try to hear your heartbeat as you lean in, the way I would listen as I laid on your chest to fall asleep…
it’s not mine to hear now though…so I really should say no…but we both know I’ll always say yes…

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