Yesterday's Me

Things go out of style 
Even a person's personality, it seems
I lost her when I needed her the most 
Searching in my heart, head, and soul
Nowhere to be found 
I've never felt this frantic and confused before 
It is entirely my fault 
Allowing the opinions of others to get inside my head
Pushing her out of my picture 
Now the frame is empty 
I can't find her in my thoughts 
The gentle sweetness that made me feel loved 
I wish I could rewind to yesterday 
When I still felt her presence 
My tears feel like hollow crystals of glass
Without her warmth to fill them 
Winter is early this year 
Now my heart is dying 
Until I find it 
Through the congested white mist of my thoughts
A blue star 
Her energy is returning
I think she left to teach me a lesson 
Not to mistreat or change myself 
Or take for granted what I have 
And who I am 
Vowing to never lose her again 
She is mine, and it doesn't matter what people think
I will never live without her
now that she has been found.